Yaw, Dids?


Sabah, Januari 2019

January 29, 2019 1
Sabah, Januari 2019
The seafood, the islands are incomparable. We stayed there for 2 nights and we had seafood on both nights! 
Todak Waterfront Hawker Center,Kota Kinabalu.
Welcome Seafood Restaurant, Kota Kinabalu
On the last day, we took half-day island hopping tour to visit Manukan Island & Mamutik Island. Look at this little beach boy enjoying the sea, sun and sand.

What a fun journey. Seeing my baby enjoying the scenery as much as his parents are, swells my heart. Ahhh... to many more sightseeing in the future!



January 24, 2019 0

but then, the first thing you do when you wake up in the morning is to check on me & the baby. You change the nappy without being asked, and you tried your best even when you know the effort will go in vain because we both know, if he wants me --he only wants me and there's nothing we could do to make him settle for anything else.

thanks, for being a good husband... but a better daddy.
we love you.


Laal Ishq,

November 16, 2018 2
Laal Ishq,

May all the happiness in the world become yours.
.deepveer shipper since 2013.



November 01, 2018 2

"A ghost can be a lot of things. A memory, a daydream, a secret. Grief, anger, guilt. But in my experience most times they’re just what we want to see…..Most times a ghost is a wish" 
- The Haunting of Hill House (2018)

Book Affair: literature wrap-up,

November 01, 2018 0
Book Affair: literature wrap-up,

Wrap Up | October 2018

I told myself, I am going to take my reading slow as the only time I got for reading is when my son is asleep and, I wish to watch few shows on Netflix as well. Hence, I kept my investment light.

First book I finished this month was Josh & Hazel’s Guide to Not Dating by Christine Lauren. Josh and Hazel supposed to not date but to help each other to be in the game. It is light, fun and uncomplicated. With an ample amount of Hazel’s peculiarity, cowboy’s boot and cute doggo –I like the simplicity of the book. Cute rapport between characters. My favorite take, 
"I realize that finding the perfect person isn't going to be easy for me because I'm a lot to take," she says, "but I'm not going to change just so that I'm more datable. At the end of the day, being myself is enough. I'm enough."
The Royal Runaway by Lindsay Emory, I discovered this book while I was scrolling Instagram and immediately attracted to the cover. Still reeling from The Crown, I picked this one in a whim. So Princess Theodora, the second in line of the throne of Drieden was jilted on her wedding day and after 4 months in exile, recuperating from the shame, princess decided to sneak out and let loose. She met what she thought was her Prince Charming but that sexy scot was her former fiancé’s brother—a British spy who demands answer to the country’s scandal. Fast paced, cute romance, some gun-packed action and enough political drama. My take, 
“Well-behaved woman seldom make history,”
Thirdly, Getting Off by Erica Garza that was selected as our buddy-read group. I made a lengthy review of it (excuse my aggressiveness). In short, I was not amused.

The last book I finished in October was Dirty Headline by LJ Shen, an intense romance between a Chuck wearing journalist and her Alphadouche but hot as hell boss. I enjoy the cute banter and their sassy one-liner.

Now that I have penned it down, it is indeed an awfully light investment.


document (i),

October 31, 2018 0
document (i),
"Document the moments you feel most in love with yourself - what you’re wearing, who you’re around, what you’re doing. Recreate and repeat."

the art of starting over,
i'm always the master.


Book Affair: Getting Off: One Woman's Journey Through Sex and Porn Addiction by Erica Garza (Review)

October 19, 2018 0
Book Affair: Getting Off: One Woman's Journey Through Sex and Porn Addiction by Erica Garza (Review)
Honest, thought provoking, unusual. 

If I could tell how many times I had to put down this one and catch a breather before plunge in again in this what I feel like a spiral maze. Fheww! An awkward experience. It was dizzying for me because a) it’s like peering into someone’s head and b) everything is uncomfortable 

Getting Off is a memoir about a woman’s addiction sex and porn. Upon picking this one up, I was expecting something ‘lifting’ out from it since the topic considered taboo, especially for women but my expectation fails me (again..) and I will tell you why. 

 As early as 12 years old, Erica Garza has started experiencing porn clips and masturbation that leads to her addiction for the next two decades. I was fascinated at first quarter of the book by Garza’s courage to come out and to tell her story. Yes, despite having to take a break when everything gets too intense as she lets out more and more details that I obviously had problem to digest, still I challenged myself because her story has been intriguing –but about halfway through, the story became repetitive, she kept on making the same mistakes especially in partners’ department. 

 This is a memoir about addiction and who am I to judge her real story? –I won’t touch the delicate matter but… the book lacks grip. You know some books that make you lose sleep and constantly thinking about them when you’re not reading it? This book is not one of those. I lacked empathy to Erica, I did not wholly invested in her tale. And I was left –unsatisfied. 

 I agree that it is a thought provoking journey and if anything, I recommend this for any of you who seeks challenge in your reading.


what is it like; wfh with an 11 months,

August 28, 2018 0
what is it like; wfh with an 11 months,

  1. Perpetually swatting little chubby fingers who attempted to smash the keyboard with much gusto
  2. Had to resort for food delivery because you just don’t have the time to prepare even the simplest meal
  3. Muted microphone because you can’t jeopardize your long-built reputation with a noisy baby during cross continent conference call no matter how cute your baby may sound. Babytalk is the cutest okay! Don’t fight me.
  4. Getting your laptop/phone ‘s cable chewed every time you averted your sight from them  
  5. The moment you finally got one thing done on your laptop and you take a look around you (cue: suspense music background)–try very hard not to cry because while you’re busy saving your career, your home was in mayhem. I’m sorry
  6. If you feel the room is too quiet and your 11 months is not sleeping, find them! Quick! Silent is not good. Be on your feet before they could execute something that you will be sorry for. Trust me on this; I learnt it the hard way.  
  7. Cartoon could be your savior. For 30 minutes at least. Better than nothing!  
  8. So many moms wishing that they’re doing what you’re doing right now. Working with your kid in your sight. Think about them and be thankful 😊


Book Affair: literature wrap-up,

July 31, 2018 0
Book Affair: literature wrap-up,

Wrap Up | July 2018

So first Breathe – by Dr Beni Rusani. Picked this up during my girl’s day out (Note: You need Girls’ Day Out once a while. I swear by it) Written by a cardiologist about a cardiologist who had flashes of life played before his own eyes –moments of having a heart attack (oh the irony). He had his moments –resentment, joy and everything. A look of a past while struggling to stay alive. I like how he penned everything down but at some point, the book feel flat. It gets too melancholic and I’m not for it all the time. Overall an OK book.

Finding Audrey – First impression, I LIKE THE COVER! The story themed around anxieties and life of people around it. I love the family, fun & chaotic. I love the boyfriend, open & supporting. It feels light and heavy at the right time. Truly balanced the issue out. Warning – I you have closure issue, do not read this one. I repeat. Do not. Because there are none. I googled it –obviously, I need a damn closure of what happened to Audrey that drove her into that seven shades of anxieties but guess what Sophie Kinsella said –you are entitled to privacy. I was irritated.

Moving along, This Is Going to Hurt: Secret Diaries of a Junior Doctor –You know I love Medical Drama, if you don’t –I’m telling you now. I love Medical Drama. 10 first pages and I was already in splits! I fell in love almost instantly. And I watched 13 seasons of Grey’s Anatomy so obviously I got the upper hand on the medical jargons although there are foot-notes & they are the true star of the book—hilarious. The climax stump me and I do not think I could recover. Ever. This one is good, trust me. Highly—highly recommended.

Sharp Objects –I have this habit of needing to read the book before it hit screens. So I start. This one right here is dark, twisted and disturbing. Nauseated even. Yes this one have that kind of effect to me. It’s nasty at some points but it is what gets me going. To unfold the troubled childhood, that dark past in that eerie town.

The Palace of Illusions –Another heavy book after one, wow what a poor decision over there. So this is basically a Mahabharat ; from a female point of view. Draupadi, a princess, destined to do great things, a wife of 5 husbands. Fate, Honor, Valor, Sacrifice. As how myths would be. This book had it’s pace, peaking, staling and at some point—right downhill. Myths often left me annoyed with the protagonist but that’t just how myths/historical fiction are –flawed. 


milestones : 10 months,

July 23, 2018 0
milestones : 10 months,
And just like that, you turned 10 months last 20th. With forth teeth peeking through, you bite almost everything. Yesterday you grind your teeth which made mama shivered. I said No, you beamed your cheekiest full teeth smile. 

Look Ma, I got teeth.

Yes sweet darling, you got teeth. Your bone is now aligned and you are cruising comfortably, just a matter of time till you are striding. As cliche as it may sound , don't grow up too fast! 


Little Life Update : May -- according to my phone's gallery.

June 07, 2018 0
Little Life Update : May -- according to my phone's gallery.
Holla June, tad bit late on the update perdona me, but hey look at the bright side --I'm finally documenting!
(Warning : Might be too visual 😁)

Voting Day

We went back to Ipoh on a day trip to practice my constitutional right to vote and heck yeah! We did it. As I hadn't see my father for quite some time, we had a scrumptious lunch at a restaurant near Taman Anda. Dang it the Daging Salai Masak Lemak is freaking good. Long weekend follows new government's takeover afterward we spent the days indoor doing nothing, eyes on Awani just to be extra alert on the news.

Dean's Birthday 

Dean's birthday this year falls on working day schucks it and I think he's too old for cake but little did I know, his brother & sister planned a small surprise and we had dinner together. Happy birthday, Darling.

1st Ramadhan in Kuantan

I've never been to Kuantan before, can you believe it? I have visited each and every capital of Peninsular Malaysia but not Kuantan. So when Dean told me he needs to travel to Kuantan for work, I wanted to tag along. It's Ramadhan so slim chance to explore the city during the day but I thought this is the chance. So to Kuantan, we went!
We had our iftar at Kuantan's famous Padang MPK, picnic style on the first day and went to Teluk Chempedak on the second iftar. All base covered  I think
Quite bummed out I didn't get the chance to have a taste of it's famous Kula Cakes tho.

Ariana's Birthday

We hosted a birthday party! Well, we pretty much did nothing except prepare the venue, which was , my house lol.
Ariana turned 1 on 28th but we decided to celebrate it early on the weekend. Both of her grands turned up, few close relatives too. Our house was buzzing with kids! 🎉

Champion's League Final Match

Kina and I got so few similarities of taste but one thing we shared is our husbands' love for Liverpool. After we wrapped up Ariana's party, we hosted Kina & Afiq for final match party. It was lit! You guys know how it ends. (There's some visual proof too lol sorry boys)
p.s : Watching final match with a sleeping 8 month in the next room is a sport.

Idris' Standing-Up Obsession

Just when he turned 8 month, this guy couldn't stop standing up. Sometimes I wish I got extra pair of eyes just for him. He would cling to almost anything just to stand up curtain, table, wires ..you name it.

So, that was May for us!  💕